Wes is ONE!

I can't believe I am typing this and telling the world that my baby is ONE!!!  (in just a few hours actually)

One year ago (about this time) I was laying in a hospital bed hoping that my boy would come sooner rather than later.  Little did I know how my life was about to change and for the better!

I can not thank my heavenly father enough for the sweetest boy in the whole world!!  Wes knows me so well, knows when I am happy...when I am sad, and when I just need a love.  Being a mom was my dream for a long time and it has not let me down, I can't wait to keep being Wes' mom for the rest of his life!

ALL ABOUT WES!!

1year checkup stats:
Weight - 23lbs 85%
Height - 31.3in 95%

Wes is a fun loving little boy.
He sleeps through the night (and has been since 6 months...I know blessing of a lifetime!) and generally sleeps for about 12-14 hours.
He wakes up and is SO happy in the morning!
He loves to play with all of his toys and discover things while mom works.
He loves to ride in his stroller and see everything around him, whether it is in the store or for a walk, he is fascinated by most everything
He eats almost everything in sight!  If he sees anyone eating, he will go straight to them, wave his hands and try and get some food :)
He is WALKING!  and standing up on his own.  It is like a whole new life for him now that he can walk.
He takes two naps a day and is not quitting that anytime soon :)
He LOVES his "sisters" (my nieces) They have a way of making him laugh that no one else can.
All in all, he is such a fun busy boy!  I can not wait to see what else he is going to do in the next year...bring it on :)

We did a 1st birthday and cake smash session and here are my favorites

Wes, your mama loves you more than you will ever know and I am so grateful to be called your mommy!!

my baby, my angel

I have been thinking about this post for quite a few months, And couldn't think of a better time than "Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day" 

On June 20th we found out that we were expecting another baby!  We were so excited! Surprised, but excited. We knew our babies would be close in age, but it was something I always wanted. 

Things seemed to be going along great, and the pregnancy was similar to Wes'.  I scheduled my first OB appointment and was so excited to go and hear the heartbeat. From our experience with Wes, we were very nervous!  We started the ultrasound and saw our little baby for the first time!  The baby was measuring a little less than 6 weeks which was a week "off" from my projected due date which initially scared me, but my OB said that it was common with women with PCOS. 

About five days after my appointment, I started to spot and I freaked. However, I spotted with Wes as well around the general time so I tried to keep calm. I went to my parents house for 10 days and stopped spotting after three days. I thought things were good. On the way home we stopped in Kingman,AZ and the bleeding started again. 

I quickly scheduled an appointment with my OB, and thankfully Scott was able to be there with me. We had an ultrasound and our absolute worst fear came true. There was no heartbeat in our little baby.  

I was heartbroken, I remember trying to hold it together, and my doctor (who is the sweetest man and doctor) sat there, held my hand and told me that it was nothing that I had done, that the baby would always be mine, and that one day I would be able to hold my  baby.  As I sat there in that room, and saw my best friend holding my miracle baby, Wes, my heart was so grateful for those boys and I knew that the baby we had lost, was indeed part of our family and that one day I was going to be able to hold that baby, to raise that baby and to tell him/her how much I love them.

The details of the next few days are some of the most difficult and challenging times that I have ever had through my life.  I am so grateful that I had Scott there with me the whole time.  I knew that he was hurting just as much as I was, and it was a growing experience for him and I.  I will forever treasure the long talks that we had in those days and the blessings we have received since.

I have had too many friends lose babies, whether it be in early pregnancy, stillbirth, or infancy and I can say that without a doubt they are some of the strongest women I have ever met!  To all of you, thank you for being an example of strength to me!

As I type this, and think about my baby, I know that my baby is waiting for me, watching over me, and one day he/she will be waiting to run into my arms and I will never let them go.  Until that day, I will live my life trying to be the best woman, wife, and mother!

Catch Up

I know it has been WAY too long since I updated our blog...and like everyone says, I am going to try and be better about this :)

I figure the best way to update is through pictures!!

A little bit about us real quick, we have moved to ARIZONA!  We love it hear and couldnt have asked for a better place to live.  Scott is working as a Sales Rep for a company called Paychex and I am working from home for the same company as an accounting speacialist.  We live about 2 miles from my sister and it is fAbUloUs!  I love watching Wes and my nieces play...he will always have three big sisters in those girls :)

So here is the last year in pictures (fair warning...lots of pictures!)

Few days old

We got a newborn shoot and these are some of my favorites :)

Wes' Blessing Day was such a beautiful day and we were so grateful that all of our families were there to support us.

Wes and I have so much fun hanging out at homes with each other

(2 Months)

(3 Months)

(4 Months)

Scott had to go back to NY for training, and he was able to go visit Niagara Falls! (I was SO jealous)

(5 months)

Cool Dudes

Swimming for the first time (the sun was in his eyes)

My first Mother's Day

Scott's first Father's Day

(6 months)

Solids were the best thing he ever got!

(7 Months)

(8 Months)

(8 Months)

He now climbs and gets into everything!!  He specifically loves the speakers under my desk :)

(9 Months)

10 Months

11 Months

Having fun at the AZ State Fair

Here's to hoping I can get it together and post more as the time goes on...including Wes' one year stats, pictures, and party times!!