Thursday, April 26, 2012

Our little MIRACLE!

We have great news to share! We are going to have a BABY!!! I am currently 13 weeks along and due November 5, 2012. Here is the first picture we got to see of our little peanut

Here are 2 other picture of our little one that was just taken today. 

Here is the story...(fair is long :)
Our road to this was far from a cut and dry situation. Two years ago, we felt strongly that it was time to try and start our family. So there we went! I knew that my mom had some difficulties getting pregnant and I was a little prepared to have the same issues. After about 6 months of trying and not having a single normal cycle we decided it was time to go talk to a doctor. Due to issues with insurance and all that fun stuff it took about another 6 months to get an official diagnosis with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, also known as PCOS. My specific issue was that I was not ovulating and in order to get pregnant that has to happen. 

About a year after we started trying we went on some fertility drugs called Clomid. Clomid is suppose to work on "most" women with the same problem that I had. First month, nothing, second month, nothing, and so on. Finally our doctor said, "We can do one more round and after that I am afraid you are going to need to talk to a reproductive specialist about Artificial Insemination, InVitro, or any other options. For our last round of Clomid, after lots of research on my end, I asked to add the medication Metformin. We didn't get pregnant, but I did ovulate which was a good sign. After about 1.5 trying and thinking about getting pregnant constantly, and crying anytime anyone around me got pregnant, and I thought, why not me I was ready for a break.  Just a couple of months of not worrying about it, and just enjoy life and enjoy the fact that I have an amazing husband that is so supportive, that I have a great job that pays awesome, that I have an amazing family that loves me unconditionally baby or not. I was ready for a break. We decided to take about a 3 month break and just focus on us (and save some money for all the treatments we were about to walk into) 

So when my cycle was off in February...I thought there was no way I could be pregnant. I didn't want to take a pregnancy test, I have taken so many that came back negative that I just wasn't in the mood to take another one that was negative. Scott just kept telling me, just take a test...whats the worst that could happen. So one morning I decided okay I have a test in the cupboard, I guess I will take one. Scott had already left to go to school, but I was so convinced that it was going to be negative I didn't think anything about it. So you can only imagine what my face looked like when I saw the words "Pregnant" on the wasn't "Not Pregnant" like so many times before. I literally had to blink a couple of times and even then it was such a shock, I didn't even know what to do. Once I got my head back on a little, I was like...I have to call Scott! So I called and he didn't answer...he was in I text him, and told him to call me asap. He called back and all the words that came out of my mouth were, "um...I'm Pregnant" He immediately came home but not before he stopped at Smiths to get another pregnancy test. He got home, we took another test and I thought again, it will for sure be negative. But to our surprise, it was not! We were really pregnant! 

We were so happy, but knew at the same time that we very well could miscarry so we decided to just keep it a secret from everyone and wait for the first doctors appointment, little did we know what roller coster we were about to go on... At 8 weeks I woke up and noticed some light spotting. I started freaking out!! The Lord finally gave us this amazing gift, and I was terrified of losing it. After calling the doctor I was told to just take it easy and stay off my feet. I kept in contact with my doctor and they kept telling me that it was somewhat normal, it happens to many women and since I wasn't having any cramping it was okay. A week after, on a Friday morning we went in for our first appointment. I was so nervous that morning I can't even tell you! I am sure my blood pressure was off the charts! :) I explained again that I had been having some spotting, but no cramping. Again the doctor said, that can be normal. In came the doctor...she started the exam...everything was looking good. Then it came time for the ultrasound...the moment we had heard was so amazing! Right? Wrong. The doctor proceeded to tell us that I had what was called a blighted ovum, that there was no baby and then proceeded to talk about what to expect in a miscarriage for the following 10-15 minutes. It was terrible! I was a nightmare that I would never wish on my very worst enemy...ever. 

She wanted to verify with an ultrasound with their ultrasound tech, but she was pretty sure she was correct. I had such a hard time thinking about anything else, that everything else that was said went in one ear and out the other. We scheduled the ultrasound with the tech for the following Monday. That weekend we went down to St. George to visit my parents. We told them what had happened, and it was a hard hard weekend. Again, something no woman should ever go through. 

That Monday morning, I distinctively got the thought of a friend on Facebook that went in for her first appointment and she was told there was no heartbeat, she then went to an ultrasound tech and they found the baby and the heartbeat no problem. All day, I couldn't shake that thought. The time came to go in for the ultrasound. The ultrasound tech started the ultrasound and about 10 seconds in he said the words that changed out lives forever! "There is your baby, and there is the heartbeat!" We were floored. It was not what we thought we were going to be told. We proceeded to have about 25 more minutes of looking at our baby!! Needless to say it was a very very happy day! After a lot of not so happy days! We were so excited that we started telling our family. When we called and told our moms that the doctor was wrong and that we were pregnant there were a lot of screams and a lot of prayers of thanksgiving! 

After what happened, we decided that we had to switch doctors. After talking to others, we decided to go to Dr. Watabe with Legacy OB GYN. We just went in to see him today and he is amazing!!! We told the nurse kinda what happened at our previous appointment so we were a little nervous and jaded, she said they would bring the ultrasound machine in, and do another one, just to put us at ease. Dr. Watabe answered all our questions and was so awesome about everything! Just such a difference from our first appointment. 

Needless to say we hare so happy to have the little miracle growing and to have the opportunity to be parents. I have not been super sick...I have had my moments of nausea, but for the most part I have felt quite good. I am starting to kinda show, which is nice, and I can't wait to show even more! 

Most of all, though, I am so thankful for everything that we have been through to get us to this point in our lives. There were some many parers asking God why, why not now...why are we going through this. But I know without a doubt in my mind that we needed to go through all of those things to make us the people that we are today. The Lord knew when we were ready, and when we were he blessed us with the most amazing gift! Our little baby!